July 15, 2018
Last monday, on July 9th, I turned 22. Is it only me, or does anyone else think that 22 is a strange number, or at least age? I really feel like I’m stuck in the middle right now, slowly but surely growing out of being a student and being expected to be a full grown adult, finding my place in this society.
Maybe I’m overreacting, maybe I’m weird, but I honestly don’t know what to do with the fact that I’m 22 now. Maybe I feel that way because my life is not going to change much anytime soon? I’m still studying to get my bachelor’s degree, still living at home, I’m still working at my part time job and I’m still the little blogger slash Instagramer that I was last month. But I’m coming to think now, maybe that’s the root of this weird feeling?
Maybe I feel, very deep inside, that there should in fact be a change happening. Is there a further step to climb, a new goal to set sight on or maybe it’s time for something completely different in the first place? Oh god, what am I even thinking about. Whereas the dreamy, creative part of me is planting these thoughts like seeds in my brain, there’s still the rational and realistic little self sitting on my other shoulder, whispering in my ear to first focus on the main goals. On top of which is: studying hard and getting that degree as soon as possible. But whereas I constantly have this task in mind there are still little goals in between that I like to set myself. Small victories that I want to experience. Little rewards that keep me motivated. So what are those?
For one, I really want to step up my blogging game. I want to get a lot more private with you guys and share some really deep insights of my life, starting with the long distance relationship that I’m currently in. For a very long time I thought that there are certain parts of my private life that I wanted to keep exactly that: private. Under that category also fell my relationships. But recently I have been thinking that the main reason I have this blog is because I want to share experiences and maybe even help someone else out there who’s in the same situation. I found myself seeking out a lot of blogs talking about LDR’s and it struck me that there’s absolutely no reason for me not to talk about it as well. Some of you, especially girls, have been reaching out to me, asking how I handled my relationship while studying abroad and even now, with my man being back in Canada. It’s no secret I’m in a relationship and as long as I don’t share the color of our underwear, is there really anything wrong with sharing other key aspects?
What’s also next is my big vacation coming up this August. I will be going 2 weeks to the USA, followed by 2 weeks in Toronto, Canada, right after. The reasons are quite practical, to be honest. When I was 16, I spent a high school exchange year in a small town in Wisconsin and two of my class mates from that time are getting married this summer! How cute is that? And what’s even cuter: they invited me! I feel honored and happy and simply couldn’t say no. Not only because I love the people but because it also gives me an excuse to travel back „home“ again (as if I ever needed one, ha!). I will be staying with my host father from back then and going on many adventures in the area, reliving memories and revisiting places I’m still emotionally connected to such as the high school itself and the place we used to get ice cream at all the time. Words can’t describe how excited I am about this trip and clearly I’ll take you all with me on my social media and in the form of blog posts.
After that, I’m finally going to see my boyfriend, Dylan, again. He’s currently living and working in Toronto, which is why I’ll spend the following 2 weeks there. Here, too, my emotions run wild just at the thought of it. I have already visited Canada when I was around 14 years old but it’s a shame to admit that I don’t really remember much. And while I’m only going to see a fracture of the country within these 2 weeks it’s really just about reuniting myself with my boo, rather than going on any extensive trips up North. 🙂
And after that… my summer is pretty much over! In September I’ll already start taking summer classes again before the next semester officially begins in October. I’d like to plan a couple more short trips for then but there’s absolutely nothing set in stone yet. For example I’d love to see my Italian family in Milan again, pay Kathleen (my uni-exchange bestie) a visit in Paris and I also know that my mom would like to go somewhere warm again around November. So we’ll see how all of that goes. I’ll definitely keep you posted and on top of all my chaotic (and so far nonexisting) travel plans! 🙂 And with that I say: until next time!
Thank you for reading and lots of love,
your Alice <3
